i don't know why but i feel so lost and empty... seriously don't know what is the next step to take.
Bernice at 12:32 AM

Hello World!
I've just dyed my ah-lian red hair back to dark brown and it felt so good to look like a good girl again =)

I don't see myself trusting you anymore. I'm so sick of your lies and attitude. You are not only a stealer but also a selfish one who is not apologetic at all. & Stop acting all nice when you are a bitch. It makes me sick.
Bernice at 11:08 PM

Bernice at 6:03 PM

the last 3 weeks of my life has been one h*ll of a roller coaster.
the best and worst that can ever happen in my life took place.
I lost an opportunity that i really really wanted. I guess I didn't expect to be offered the job so when it came I was at a total loss and didn't dare to accept it. I wanted to say 'yes' the very moment I was given the offer but I thought it was a huge decision to make and I should think through it. And think through it I did. The more I thought about it, the more I worried about the unnecessary and nitty gritties, overlooking the benefits and the big picture. In my confused state, I spoke to the wrong people and the people I trusted and respected the most didn't really approve so I got swayed. Therefore it didn't work out in the end and I was sooo devastated because I fought so hard for it and wanted it real bad. Plus, I don't think I'll ever be offered such a good opportunity again. I cried everyday for 2 weeks until I made the decision to go back to Church. I really have to thank Catherine for bringing me to her Church. Receiving Christ was the best decision and it really changed my life. I felt sooo much better after receiving Christ, it was the best I felt for a long time. During the service, the pastor said, "God never makes any mistake in timing." And it really strike a cord because timing was everything. I would have taken up that opportunity if I was informed by Friday as promised but the offer only came on Monday. I would have taken up the offer if I wasn't busy, rushing between class and work and working till 7.30pm from Monday to Wednesday. Things would have been different if G had not been on sick leave on Tuesday. There is so many 'What if' s. And everything that could have contributed to me thinking twice about something i wanted so bad happened in that few crucial days. I have been asking myself 'why' and I think i found the answer during service :)

you know, I might have lost that opportunity but I gain something far more valuable, God's love.
Bernice at 12:11 AM

Bernice at 11:21 PM

i know i've been MIA for so long i don't even know where to start!
anyway, blogging just didn't cross my mind for the past month so yea.
i think it started when blogger had some problems with uploading photos so i was kinda put off.
I hope to be back for good when i get a hang of my new schedule :)
i wonder how people get use to twittering!!! i'll never be able to do something like that!
Bernice at 6:41 PM

Everybody can't wait to dig into Agnes's huge Takopachi in Japan!!!


I'm having a Japanese food craze now thanks to the Hokkaido fair!!!
Breakfast- Japanese.
Teabreak- Japanese.
After-Dinner Desert- Japanese!!!
Bernice at 10:31 PM

Bernice at 3:59 PM